Bipolar Disorder

Most people do not understand Bipolar Illness and even if they do, they can have no clear concept of what it is actually like unless they either have it or live with someone who does.

Bipolar Disorder is defined as follows: “also referred to as bipolar affective disorder or manic depression, is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a category of mood disorders defined by the presence of one or more episodes of abnormally elevated energy levels,cognition, and mood with or without one or more depressive episodes.”  This is a complex definition and I hope to break it down a little for you.

According to the DBSA (Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance) – “Depression and bipolar disorder (also known as manic depression) are both highly treatable medical illnesses. Unfortunately many people do not get the help they need because of misunderstanding the issues surrounding the illnesses or the fear associated with stigma.”  I also need to add that even if you go to the doctor with symptoms it is sometimes overlooked and a diagnosis is given as something other than Bipolar.  I was not diagnosed until I was 21.  And even then I don’t think I would have had it checked out if it wasn’t for taking a psychology class.  It was the first time I was ever able to see all my symptoms laid out in one place – with one likely cause.

The DBSA goes on to explain: “Bipolar disorder differs significantly from clinical depression, although the symptoms for the depressive phase of the illness are similar. People who have bipolar disorder talk about experiencing mood shifts. These swings can be severe, ranging from extreme energy to deep despair. These mood shifts disrupt normal life activities distinguish bipolar mood episodes from ordinary mood changes.  The shifts may be mild ranging from sadness to irritability or restlessness.”  I would like to add here that the shifts of mood can be very rapid.  Personally, I have experienced times when all was well and then as if turning on a dime I was in a rage.  Another aspect that people do not understand is that the “manic” phase(s) do not necessarily mean happy, laughing or the life of the party.  It can manifest itself as violence or rage.

Here is a small list of symptoms for both the manic and depressive phases.  If you know someone, or you yourself, experience these symptoms – please seek medical attention.  It can be controlled.  It may take time to find a treatment that will work for you, but it will be well worth it as you will see (and feel) the improvement.  I would also like to extend the offer to be available via comment or email should you wish to speak with me about my personal experiences living with Bipolar Disorder.

Symptoms of mania – the “highs” of bipolar disorder

  • Increased physical and mental activity and energy
  • Heightened mood, exaggerated optimism and self-confidence
  • Excessive irritability, aggressive behavior
  • Decreased need for sleep without experiencing fatigue
  • Grandiose delusions, inflated sense of self-importance
  • Racing speech, racing thoughts, flight of ideas
  • Impulsiveness, poor judgment, distractibility
  • Reckless behavior
  • In the most severe cases, delusions and hallucinations

Symptoms of depression – the “lows” of bipolar disorder

  • Prolonged sadness or unexplained crying spells
  • Significant changes in appetite and sleep patterns
  • Irritability, anger, worry, agitation, anxiety
  • Pessimism, indifference
  • Loss of energy, persistent lethargy
  • Feelings of guilt, worthlessness
  • Inability to concentrate, indecisiveness
  • Inability to take pleasure in former interests, social withdrawal
  • Unexplained aches and pains
  • Recurring thoughts of death or suicide

Hump Day Hottie – Special Request

Our Hump Day Hottie this week is a special request.  According to the Daily Mail in England, our special hottie is “the pop star turned pin-up professor”, while the Telegraph calls him the man “who made science sexy”.   That’s right – we’re talking about Professor Brian Cox!

November 2009 - Photo by Paul Clarke

I can sum up the professor in one word : WOW!  Cox started out in Hulme Grammar School where he even received a D for A-Level Mathematics.  So don’t worry kids, if you get a few bad grades that will not stop you from obtaining awesome heights!

In 1993, while studying physics at the University of Manchester, he joined the band D:Ream as the keyboard player.  Even while working with the band, Brian was able to complete an undergraduate first class honours degree and a M.Phil – both in physics.  To round things off, in 1997 he received his Ph.D. in high energy particle physics.

Brian has been the host of numerous British programs on radio as well as television.  Some of Cox’s other achievements include:

  1. 2006 – received the British Association’s Lord Kelvin Award
  2. 2006 – elected as a University Research Fellow of The Royal Society
  3. 2010 – won the Institute of Physics Kelvin Prize
  4. 2010 – was appointed Officer of the Order of the British Empire (OBE)
  5. 2011 – won Best Presenter by the Royal Television Society for Wonders of the Solar System

So am I right?  WOW!!  Below is the first part of an episode of the British Panel Show, Would I Lie To You? Brian and his team-mates try to out-lie the other guys.  Hope you enjoy it!  Also, follow Brian Cox on Twitter (if you’re into that).

I was asked to connect to the second part as it was unclear as to which was the correct one from YouTube – so here is part 2 of Brian’s appearance on Would I Lie To You?

My Poetry – Part 2

This one is dated 9/9/1993 and Mac1949 helped me write this one.  It is more upbeat than my usual poetry.

 

My True Love

 

My true love’s face is dark as night

Deep and velvety, a creamy brown

A handsome, marvelous, wonderful sight

That won’t let my heart calm down.

I’ll never want for anything

So rich is my true love.

Not furs, not cars, not a diamond ring

All this we are above

I’ll never have a love so hot

It’s really down right steamy

All that I want my love has got

Smooth and sweet and dreamy.

 

And though to you it may seem loco

I love nothing more than a good cup of cocoa.

 

My Poetry – Part One

While going through some boxes recently I came across some writing and poetry I had done in high school.  This was before I knew I was bipolar.  I feel some of my best writing was done at this time – so I would like to share some of it with you.

This first one I did not title, but the object of the exercise was to create our own poem using the form and style of Donald Hall’s The Child. Below is my version.

 

We live among a daydream

a bright and loving theme

Nobody can destroy.

 

We sit and think alone

by sparkling pools, in a world

where families are destroyed.

 

Tears roll with sorrow

as the wind breathes softly

with the sound of crying children.

 

We hear soft groaning

with empty thoughts

of a once felt caress.

 

We sit until we ache

of the unforgotten memories

we have left behind.

 

When we stand to leave

we stop suddenly

to drift in eternal bliss.